Tired........

Some people comment that i say the word "tired" to much and they said that i am not actually tired but just lazy. Well when i say i am tired i really do tired and most of the time i do feel very tired.
Maybe because i don't sleep that much or maybe i just over do my self or maybe because i am not as strong as everyone else physically; you might think i am lying but i am often tired and forcing my self to do stuff.
Back home in indonesia, every morning i have flu and it gets better as the days goes by, but every morning it takes me a lot of effort to go to school and stay focus in early lessons.
I always thought that it is because of the cold airconditioner in my room but when i came here i realize that it is because of the warm weather and the bugs flying in the air. In the winter i never have any problems but when it comes to summer
oh my.. you will see me sneezing around the whole day.

I feel bad that i am like this, especially at work. I already have too many sick days and today i am trying to hold on and not go home early. It is so difficult ... but i am holding on and another 2,5 hours to go.

The meaning of this moaning and whining story of mine is that we need to realize that other people whom ever they are; they have expectations from you and sometimes a lot from you. You can say that people expect you to work good, be a good or succesful person, have time for them or they expect some attention from you or maybe they just want to know everything about you. But don't think that you never expect anything from other people; Where ever you go you expect something. We have always expectations for everything ( a big word "Always" but it is suitable in this case ).

Everybody is not perfect, God made us like this for His purpose, so that we don't get arrogant of ourself being so perfect. Expectations from other people we will get but not all of them we can achieve. We can't make everyone happy, we can try but we won't be able to. Don't ever try to satisfy other people in the cause of sacrifying yourself. ( I am not saying that we can't help other people ). You need to be wise on deciding things, that is why you need God to help you, ask Him what to do on everysingle decision you have to make even a very simple one. Walk with Him everyday, talk to him, pray and listen.

I don't know where this story is going but what i know is when you are in need there will be always someone there to help you and try to be there also for other people in need.